This Is Where the Healing Begins

You’re about to read Chapter 35. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. “My singleness is a privilege, not a punishment. I am choosing it in every moment, at some level at least, or it would not be happening.” That’s something I wrote in 2014 right after I got home from seeing […]

You’re about to read Chapter 34. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I’ll be honest. I straight up don’t feel like writing about feelings right now. I read Lesson 34, and I did the homework. And for today, that just might have to be enough. [Editor’s Note: Naturally, I then go […]

You’re about to read Chapter 33. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. It probably sounds arrogant (or ignorant?) to say this, but I believe I am sexually healed. Unfortunately I don’t feel comfortable explaining entirely why, because it involves Paul, and I am very aware that he is not aware of […]

You’re about to read Chapter 32. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Okay so I just danced around naked while listening to the latest Taylor Swift, and I am digging into a pint of Haagen-Dazs Cookies & Cream while I write this. In other words, I am in a good place […]

You’re about to read Chapter 31. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Confession: I am losing steam on this quest. I am not losing my resolve, mind you. I am nothing if not stubborn, and even if just purely on principle, I am determined to keep my word and finish what […]

You’re about to read Chapter 30. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I am so grateful that this lesson did not confuse me. Because there was definitely a time when I confused self-care with selfishness, and that time is not now. Don’t give away your banana pudding Lesson 30 begins with […]

You’re about to read Chapter 29. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Turns out, I’m afraid of commitment! But not the sort we usually mean when we toss around the phrase “commitment-phobe.” If anything, I’m too eager for the kind of commitment that involves long-term partnership and till-death-do-us-part. But when it comes to […]

You’re about to read Chapter 28. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I did see Paul last night, and I left him. That was the wisest choice I could make. We always have choices The other day I was bemoaning a dilemma to my spirit guides. If Paul hadn’t forced me […]

You’re about to read Chapter 27. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Thank you, Lesson 27, for giving me a frickin break. Not only was this topic already near and dear, but the homework did not even include journaling! Prayer and meditation is my everything I cannot imagine a day in […]

You’re about to read Chapter 26. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. During this time of transition and growth, every day is different. Today, I feel like it took me two months to realize I got dumped. Worse, I still love Paul. So much. Better, I am more willing than ever […]

You’re about to read Chapter 25. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. The title of this lesson made me laugh out loud. Because if there is one thing I do NOT need to learn, it is how to receive inner guidance. Receiving inner guidance is literally my job I value intuition […]

You’re about to read Chapter 24. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. The past twenty-four hours have felt like a blur, and I’ve barely slept for any of them. And yes, the loss of sleep is related to the fact that I went on a date. But before you get any […]

You’re about to read Chapter 23. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Make no mistake, intention is POWERFUL. I knew this even before Lesson 23, but wow, am I feeling it strongly now. Because I strongly suspect intention is why I have a date tonight. (1) “We must believe in the […]

You’re about to read Chapter 22. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I think Week 4 and I are going to get along juuuuust fine. Of course, after making it through Week 3, probably anything would seem like a breeze. Bring on the vision I am still recalibrating from all that […]

You’re about to read Chapter 21. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. This week’s workload was intense AF and I am so ready to be done. Between last night’s emotional marathon of a meditation and today’s rigorous inventory of what I’ve uncovered in recent weeks, I am all tapped out on […]

You’re about to read Chapter 20. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. I just had one of the most impressive meditation sessions of my life. Which is saying a lot, since it is literally my job to meditate (which means I do it a LOT). But it’s true: Somehow, for me, […]

You’re about to read Chapter 19. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Lesson 19 is about self-ownership. “If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.” […]

You’re about to read Chapter 18. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Lesson 18 is the farthest I’ve come with Calling In “The One”. As you may recall from Chapter Zero, I am currently working my way through this book for the third time. Take two ended back at Lesson 9, and […]

You’re about to read Chapter 17. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. This morning I woke up with a whimper. Perhaps I was dreaming something sad; I don’t remember. I just know that today has felt tender. I really (wish I didn’t) miss Paul It’s not even that I miss Paul […]

You’re about to read Chapter 16. Want to start this story from the beginning? Go here. Working through “Core Beliefs and Other Distortions of Reality” felt more or less like an extension of the Lesson 15’s “Early Childhood Woundings,” but with even longer homework. In sum: We create our realities based on what we believe. […]